Let the Emotional Roller Coaster Begin!

I had my first breakdown today. Brent and I are in search of a daycare and we had a walk thru today at one of our top choices. Everything about the facility was wonderful! They take very good care of all the children and have plenty of staff for their growing numbers. But as soon as I walked in the room where newborns stayed, I had to fight back the tears. Actually I had to fight them back the whole time! It had nothing to do with the staff (very friendly!), or the babies (very content and happy!) but everything to do with the realization that I'm going to have to turn over my child to these people everyday and they are going to be just as important in her life as I am. I didn't see one bad thing about the place but that didn't stop the flood gates from opening as soon as I hit the car. I have no idea what came over me and at some point Brent looked over at me and said (in his oh my gosh my wife is crying again and I have no idea why voice) 'honey are you seriously getting this upset?' YES! He told me I could quit my job (not an option) but I know that there is nothing wrong with daycare. I was a daycare baby. I think kids need to be around other kids to develop social skills and have other kids to play with. I still can't for the life of me figure out why I got so upset and for that matter, still getting upset thinking about it. I'm praying that it is just the hormones and that I won't have to have a police escort the day I drop her off for the first time. The only thing that is helping me get through it is knowing that Brent is off one day during the week and one day he goes in at lunch. So technically she will only be there 3 and a half days a week. I feel so silly for already getting this upset over, of all things, daycare! I hope this isn't the beginning of a very emotional 4 months!